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take me away from everything. take me to a safe place where i can JUST BREATHE. where i can just be and not have to think
not have to be there
not have to care
not have to make decisions..
i want to stand in the rain and feel the water on my face without negativity. there is so much negativity.
i just want to carve my skin into designs and not even remember the emotions running through my body moments after.
i want to know what it feels like to be happy. i want to know what it feel slike to be care free. i want to live.
i want to feel
i want to die
i want to live
i want to feel the sun on my face and be in a happy spot in my life.
i want to feel content. i long to feel content. i long to feel
HOW I LONG TO FUCKING FEEL
i want to feel the arms of those around me, surrounding me i want to know what its like to have love
i want get out of this town and never look back
its 11:11
i want this sickness gone
these thoughts
these thoughts surround me
and swallow me with no possible way of escaping.. i think about giving up. taking a step down. i just want to go for a long time without having to wonder what other people will think and what is going to happen in the future
fuck the future. we're always thinking about the future and it's ruining the now. i'm ruining my life by staying here. the protection you give me is suffocating me
i'md ying
i'm dead
i need to live again
i need to knwo what it feels like to live
to live without regret
to live without feeling like i'm dying.
i want to rip out my veins and tie them around yoru neck.
theres nothing.
i have nothing.
this pain is pumping through my body
i just want to cut it out
THISISTHEONLYTHINGTHATHASEVERMADEMEFEELOKAY.THISISTHEONLYTHINGTHATHASPAUSEDTHEPAINTAKEITAWAY
TAKEITAWAYTAKEITAWAYTAKEITAWAY
TAKE ME AWAY FROM THIS.
IJUSTWANTTOFEELALIVE.
WHAT DOES IT FEEL LIIKE TO BE ALIVE
i am different then everyone else i see it differently i feel it differently
they have a constant flowing pumping living breathing heart in them. they are continously living without any attempt.
i go through hell every day.every heart beat is an effort.
to stay alive, i'm dying every day
i'm in a war i'm in a battle i'm dying i'm slipping
i have no understanding of it.
i dont know whats up or whats down
i cant see anymore. i have nothing.
it's gone.
my life is gone.
the spark. the shine.
ITSGONE
these ghosts are haunting me in ways i could never imagine. they slip through my skin and crack my bones.
they are haunting me
i'm losing it
fucking going crazy
insane
i cant tell the difference between reality and falsehood.
is it me talking in my head
is it me telling me these things to do
who am i
what do i care about
what are my opinions
and what are theirs
what do i form as htoughts myself and what do thoughts do they put in my head
am i them
are they me
have they been there all along
they wont ever go away
i dont knwo if i want them to
they are my voice
they are the only dependant i have
these voices in my head. scratch at my throat until it bleeds and i scream out their words.
we have become one
and we are in this together
they're what kills me;but keeps my heart beating at the same time.
save this
save us
give up